Heavy rain poured on my window
In a sky that was dark
During a sunset
What was left from you
A mark
A heart that I wanted to borrow
Left with miserable sorrow
It’s my head, that I didn’t follow
No matter how I try to draw
the distance between us
My heart, it’s to thaw
Feels so ridiculous
My feelings on a seesaw
A fight of
Minus and plus
I’ve been living
All of my life
Drinking everyone’s waste
Acting like
A sweetie wife
Wishing for my days
To end in haste
The words you said
They were really vain
It was obvious, but I lied to myself
To escape
The anguishing pain
You did too as well, to yourself
My emptiest of days
I filled them
In the most dull of the ways
Until my heart started to
Turn into "black soil”
You can't live without me
Right?
You’ve been in so much pain
Isn’t that so?
That was what you said
That night
"I’m just so sorry to let you go…”
I’ve held my tears
For too much
Not only that night
But a bunch
And let it all out in a way
That "fertilized” the ones around
And when the day comes
Loneliness cover me
From head to toe
I would be calling for you
Crying for help
For you to come
Won’t you be able to see?
That I still want you to be
With me
What if you didn't come?
My door
An open place will be
Unless it’s not you
And when I tried to put forgiveness
In between me and you
Turns out
I’ve already forgiven you
But what is it
That I really cannot do
Is to forget what you did do so
Is to forget you
A sweet breeze is
What came after the rain
When the moon was almost out
I figured it out
We cannot forget the ones who hurt us
The ones who made our days seem grievous
We just get
Bored of their pain
And fulfill
Their empty place
With "humus” and "phosphorus”